Marking time
May. 30th, 2016 10:23![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
torquillTomorrow marks four weeks since my shot, and I'm still in the thick of it.
I thought it was easing off -- the fatigue and brainfog lifted, and I started to feel halfway decent. But then the queasiness came roaring back, and my stamina still isn't what it should be, and my body is letting me know on no uncertain terms that I have far too much estrogen. Anxiety, dysphoria, loneliness, and wet dreams. I'm thinking that I may be near the peak of one more cycle, and that my last period may not have been _the_ last.
I keep upping my aromatase inhibitor. I used to take two caps a day. This morning I took eight. I don't know whether it's becoming less effective, or whether I'd be far worse off if I hadn't increased the dosage.
It's gotten very difficult to eat, and while I'm forcing myself and finding the least objectionable things possible, it's exhausting. I'm hungry all the time, which isn't helping my mood stability or my energy. Sometimes I feel okay. A lot of the time I don't. I'm burying myself in projects and social media as much as my hypoglycemic brain allows.
I'm also not sleeping well, which is partly because I'm not eating enough, and partly because I get unbearably warm at night. I wouldn't call it hot flashes -- it's not sudden or acute -- but it's like I start running a fever around dawn and I simply cannot get comfortable. I might try some progesterone at bedtime and see what that does.
I'm very ready for all of this to go away. If I never have to go through this again it'll be too soon.
I thought it was easing off -- the fatigue and brainfog lifted, and I started to feel halfway decent. But then the queasiness came roaring back, and my stamina still isn't what it should be, and my body is letting me know on no uncertain terms that I have far too much estrogen. Anxiety, dysphoria, loneliness, and wet dreams. I'm thinking that I may be near the peak of one more cycle, and that my last period may not have been _the_ last.
I keep upping my aromatase inhibitor. I used to take two caps a day. This morning I took eight. I don't know whether it's becoming less effective, or whether I'd be far worse off if I hadn't increased the dosage.
It's gotten very difficult to eat, and while I'm forcing myself and finding the least objectionable things possible, it's exhausting. I'm hungry all the time, which isn't helping my mood stability or my energy. Sometimes I feel okay. A lot of the time I don't. I'm burying myself in projects and social media as much as my hypoglycemic brain allows.
I'm also not sleeping well, which is partly because I'm not eating enough, and partly because I get unbearably warm at night. I wouldn't call it hot flashes -- it's not sudden or acute -- but it's like I start running a fever around dawn and I simply cannot get comfortable. I might try some progesterone at bedtime and see what that does.
I'm very ready for all of this to go away. If I never have to go through this again it'll be too soon.
