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torquillI'm blessed with a second family this year, and I can't think of a better gift.
I've been given acceptance and love without having to earn it. I've been included without question. My needs have been not only respected, but anticipated. And my difficulties have been met with an outpouring of patience and compassion surpassing any I've ever seen.
I'm learning that every one of us has a huge heart. D wears hers on her sleeve as much as L doesn't, but both of them care tremendously. M's battles with demons and hardship have made him kind. And Akien, who has done more for me than any single person I could name... he has given me what my soul has craved, like food or sunlight, for most of my life. At least six things he does (every time I try to count I find more) have evoked a response from some part of me deep inside that says "This is all I have ever wanted." And he does them just because he can sense I need it, even when I couldn't have put my finger on it.
I cannot imagine what would be more precious to me than this.
So my emotional animal gets the gift of rubbing up against someone and feeling our souls touch, and of being part of a clan; my rational mind gets the gift of handing off control for a little while; my libido gets the gift of the sexiest man alive; my body gets the gift of a careful and attentive medic; and my self-preservation instinct gets the gift of someone who accepts all of me without censure, and works to keep me safe.
I don't yet have Enough, but I will. As rapidly as I've been doing everything else, I suspect, especially with this abundance to draw on. I didn't expect it, but this year has brought me tremendous joy. I can only hope there is more to come.
I've been given acceptance and love without having to earn it. I've been included without question. My needs have been not only respected, but anticipated. And my difficulties have been met with an outpouring of patience and compassion surpassing any I've ever seen.
I'm learning that every one of us has a huge heart. D wears hers on her sleeve as much as L doesn't, but both of them care tremendously. M's battles with demons and hardship have made him kind. And Akien, who has done more for me than any single person I could name... he has given me what my soul has craved, like food or sunlight, for most of my life. At least six things he does (every time I try to count I find more) have evoked a response from some part of me deep inside that says "This is all I have ever wanted." And he does them just because he can sense I need it, even when I couldn't have put my finger on it.
I cannot imagine what would be more precious to me than this.
So my emotional animal gets the gift of rubbing up against someone and feeling our souls touch, and of being part of a clan; my rational mind gets the gift of handing off control for a little while; my libido gets the gift of the sexiest man alive; my body gets the gift of a careful and attentive medic; and my self-preservation instinct gets the gift of someone who accepts all of me without censure, and works to keep me safe.
I don't yet have Enough, but I will. As rapidly as I've been doing everything else, I suspect, especially with this abundance to draw on. I didn't expect it, but this year has brought me tremendous joy. I can only hope there is more to come.
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Date: 2014-12-26 07:16 (UTC)