Enjoy the silence
May. 3rd, 2007 12:12![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
torquillI took an early lunch today, since the lecture on the basic structure of DNA was boring me nearly to tears. (A double helix, with purine/pyramidine base pairs in the middle? You don't say!) I'll take a little time to go over the section on PCR later, though he may not have gotten to it due to the power-failure delay at the beginning.
I'm doing a great deal better. As I suspected, I seem to be able to sleep soundly now, with normal dreams (well, normal for me). My peace of mind appears to be genuine, back for the first time since the start of the year, before I suddenly lost two of the three things that make me happy. Those have been restored now, and finally so has my mental equilibrium.
It is, as always, a dynamic equilibrium -- I'm too passionate for it to be otherwise -- but the foundation is as solid as ever. It's bothered me that I've been so wrapped up in my own issues that I can't listen to those of friends; I'm giving myself a couple of days of peace, to rest, but after that I'll be doing some catching up.
I keep testing the quality of the calm, and finding that the anxiety as a whole is really gone; I found the linchpin and removed it, and the whole mess dissolved. There are still things to be solved, but I have no worry that I can handle them now.
I think I'm back.
I'm doing a great deal better. As I suspected, I seem to be able to sleep soundly now, with normal dreams (well, normal for me). My peace of mind appears to be genuine, back for the first time since the start of the year, before I suddenly lost two of the three things that make me happy. Those have been restored now, and finally so has my mental equilibrium.
It is, as always, a dynamic equilibrium -- I'm too passionate for it to be otherwise -- but the foundation is as solid as ever. It's bothered me that I've been so wrapped up in my own issues that I can't listen to those of friends; I'm giving myself a couple of days of peace, to rest, but after that I'll be doing some catching up.
I keep testing the quality of the calm, and finding that the anxiety as a whole is really gone; I found the linchpin and removed it, and the whole mess dissolved. There are still things to be solved, but I have no worry that I can handle them now.
I think I'm back.
