Everything is very right
Apr. 10th, 2007 20:36![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
torquillI skipped discussion and came home early because I was in too much pain to do much of anything. Couldn't think through the haze. I managed to score an appointment with Dr. J at short notice, who proceeded to spend a full fifteen minutes working hard to budge things in my shoulders. He told me what I had done to myself was "evil", that he was glad that now he didn't have it to look forward to on Sunday, gave me a hug, and sent me on my way.
I don't know how I lived with that sort of pain every day for years. I know that I got used to it, but the sheer amount of mental fog and fatigue it created, the crushing weight... it's something I'd gladly never feel again.
I still have a bit of afterglow from that relief. I also figured out the super-secret-secret handshake to make my stereo head unit give me full fade capability, rather than slaving the front and rear to make another channel for the woofer; that was something I knew existed in the auxiliary settings, but I thought I'd need the manual to help me remember how to get to it. Sony made that unit awfully intuitive, though. So now the music sounds exactly like it used to. The car..... hums. :)
On my way home I thought about all the stuff I still have to do... and I just said, "Yeah." It's okay. Really okay. I have my opiate, and I can go driving to get rid of stress. Everything is so much easier to handle now...
I don't know how I lived with that sort of pain every day for years. I know that I got used to it, but the sheer amount of mental fog and fatigue it created, the crushing weight... it's something I'd gladly never feel again.
I still have a bit of afterglow from that relief. I also figured out the super-secret-secret handshake to make my stereo head unit give me full fade capability, rather than slaving the front and rear to make another channel for the woofer; that was something I knew existed in the auxiliary settings, but I thought I'd need the manual to help me remember how to get to it. Sony made that unit awfully intuitive, though. So now the music sounds exactly like it used to. The car..... hums. :)
On my way home I thought about all the stuff I still have to do... and I just said, "Yeah." It's okay. Really okay. I have my opiate, and I can go driving to get rid of stress. Everything is so much easier to handle now...
