Introspection
Mar. 8th, 2007 09:47![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
torquillIt must be the end of the quarter -- I'm exhausted.
So far as I can tell, it was that damned biochem midterm that did it this time. Then there was Consonance, of course, and no chance to catch up on lost sleep since... but I don't just need sleep to recharge right now. I need time off.
I was doubting recently that I would still qualify as an introvert. I'm not wondering now -- the need for time to myself, specifically time in my own head, is like a thirst. No matter how much I sleep, I'm not going to feel rested until I can spend many more hours reading, or writing, or puttering in the yard. I spent the train ride up reading a book instead of doing flashcards, and I'm aware that I feel much better, even physically, than when I got on the train.
I have three-hour lunches today and next week, which do help. My lab final is next Wednesday, and then we're into finals week... what I'm dreading is that I scheduled most of my spring break for being social. I hope the plane trip out to Indiana can be spent relaxing.
I'm always tired at the end of every term; something always seems to come up that makes me overextend myself. I'm starting to guess that the lack of time off exhausts me as much or more than anything else. Next quarter doesn't look a lot better.
If I'm not reaching out and saying hi, or responding to email promptly, at least you have some idea of why. It's not that I don't like you guys... it's that I've been missing somebody else more. Namely, me.
So far as I can tell, it was that damned biochem midterm that did it this time. Then there was Consonance, of course, and no chance to catch up on lost sleep since... but I don't just need sleep to recharge right now. I need time off.
I was doubting recently that I would still qualify as an introvert. I'm not wondering now -- the need for time to myself, specifically time in my own head, is like a thirst. No matter how much I sleep, I'm not going to feel rested until I can spend many more hours reading, or writing, or puttering in the yard. I spent the train ride up reading a book instead of doing flashcards, and I'm aware that I feel much better, even physically, than when I got on the train.
I have three-hour lunches today and next week, which do help. My lab final is next Wednesday, and then we're into finals week... what I'm dreading is that I scheduled most of my spring break for being social. I hope the plane trip out to Indiana can be spent relaxing.
I'm always tired at the end of every term; something always seems to come up that makes me overextend myself. I'm starting to guess that the lack of time off exhausts me as much or more than anything else. Next quarter doesn't look a lot better.
If I'm not reaching out and saying hi, or responding to email promptly, at least you have some idea of why. It's not that I don't like you guys... it's that I've been missing somebody else more. Namely, me.
