Tick tick tick
Oct. 17th, 2006 22:34![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
torquillLife is currently okay. I'm emotionally fragile at the moment, but I strongly suspect that's the Chronic Fatigue talking. It panders to the deep dark voice at the back of my head that says school is too strenuous for me, and when I crash in the middle of lab, that voice speaks a bit louder.
I should be okay if I get a bit more sleep. It's hitting home exactly how busy my life is right now, though -- I start getting the sensation that time is always ticking away, and I have a finite number of minutes before I have to be somewhere. It's like I never stop to rest, I'm always just perching before I take off again. Not good for my stress level.
I don't have to be anywhere right now until 7:19am Thursday. That's a full unscheduled day. That helps too.
I've got to get to the point where it isn't an endurance race where my goal is to stagger across the finish line. What I need is a pace I can keep for months at a time, without straining. I suspect the classes without the biking, or the biking without the classes, would be just that. All I can hope is that the two both diminish in effort over time, and I end up at something I can handle. That may be overly optimistic, but I'm already doing all I can to minimize the impacts; there isn't a lot more I can do right now.
If I end up with a "free" day on the weekend, or I promise to make your party, and then I end up being a lump at home, please understand. My life is scheduled to the gills right now, and I need to be able to break out of that and just stay home for once. I'm running short on recharge time.
I should be okay if I get a bit more sleep. It's hitting home exactly how busy my life is right now, though -- I start getting the sensation that time is always ticking away, and I have a finite number of minutes before I have to be somewhere. It's like I never stop to rest, I'm always just perching before I take off again. Not good for my stress level.
I don't have to be anywhere right now until 7:19am Thursday. That's a full unscheduled day. That helps too.
I've got to get to the point where it isn't an endurance race where my goal is to stagger across the finish line. What I need is a pace I can keep for months at a time, without straining. I suspect the classes without the biking, or the biking without the classes, would be just that. All I can hope is that the two both diminish in effort over time, and I end up at something I can handle. That may be overly optimistic, but I'm already doing all I can to minimize the impacts; there isn't a lot more I can do right now.
If I end up with a "free" day on the weekend, or I promise to make your party, and then I end up being a lump at home, please understand. My life is scheduled to the gills right now, and I need to be able to break out of that and just stay home for once. I'm running short on recharge time.
