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torquillWell, that's the second month in a row that I've flat-out forgotten about the sick plant clinic. I was planning for it, was thinking about it as recently as Thursday... and woke up this morning at 10:30, reminded of it only because I had written it on my temperature chart for this morning. I tore out there, had about 45 minutes left and closed it out.
I was furious, of course, but in retrospect I'm so shaky and weak today that I'm not sure I could (or should) have gotten up at 7-something. Not much I can do but aim for August 4... maybe I'll set a cron job to send me email Friday afternoon or something.
Given how many years I've been doing the clinic, this forgetfulness is a little strange... but I suspect it's a function of being burned-out in all sorts of ways. My life is quiet right now, but that just means that the exhaustion of the last six months is coming down on me harder; I have emotional and mental burnout along with simple physical exhaustion (remember when I wasn't sleeping more than five hours a night for a couple months?), and that means that I'm bound to drop, fumble, and miss a few things. My long-term memory of events/names/etc. is even worse than usual too, which is saying a great deal. The effect will fade as I get some time to rest... I'm hoping that in a few weeks I'll be more consistently "present" and less prone to having my mind wander off.
In the meantime, if I end up bidding oblivious or flaking out because I've forgotten something we were talking about only two days earlier, forgive me. It'll pass.
I was furious, of course, but in retrospect I'm so shaky and weak today that I'm not sure I could (or should) have gotten up at 7-something. Not much I can do but aim for August 4... maybe I'll set a cron job to send me email Friday afternoon or something.
Given how many years I've been doing the clinic, this forgetfulness is a little strange... but I suspect it's a function of being burned-out in all sorts of ways. My life is quiet right now, but that just means that the exhaustion of the last six months is coming down on me harder; I have emotional and mental burnout along with simple physical exhaustion (remember when I wasn't sleeping more than five hours a night for a couple months?), and that means that I'm bound to drop, fumble, and miss a few things. My long-term memory of events/names/etc. is even worse than usual too, which is saying a great deal. The effect will fade as I get some time to rest... I'm hoping that in a few weeks I'll be more consistently "present" and less prone to having my mind wander off.
In the meantime, if I end up bidding oblivious or flaking out because I've forgotten something we were talking about only two days earlier, forgive me. It'll pass.
