Gratitude

[torquill]

Various people have posted about how wonderful their lives are, and how grateful they are for that. i've enjoyed reading those posts, because I want the people around me to be happy. And for once, that joy isn't tainted by bitterness... because my life is going well too. And I feel like I can say that without holding my breath and knocking on wood.

I had been debating doing one of those posts myself -- but I think it might have the same effect for my friends as theirs have had for me. So:

School is holding together, and it's really coming home to me that I can actually pull this off. It looks like I'll graduate in less than a year, and I'm probably going to get all A's again for the second quarter in a row. I've already made the Dean's List, and several things make me an attractive applicant for grad school. The future's looking pretty good.

My health is surprisingly robust, when I'm not fighting off an unusual number of chemical exposures. Even then, I know how bad it can be for other people, and I realize that recovery time of days or hours beats years (or not recovering at all). I can dream again, and trust that those dreams won't be frost-killed by disability, as so many have been in the past.

I have a wonderful, loving Weasel who looks after me, and he's been doing well himself. That love is deeper than I realize most days.

I haven't cried over my finances in a long time. That's a major source of stress that I'm glad is gone for right now.

I've found a group of people where I belong. It's not perfect, nothing ever is, but being surrounded by people who understand has started to help me feel more at home in my own skin, more like I don't have to prove myself all the time. It's let me focus my energy in more useful ways. And it's satisfied a hunger I've had since I started grade school.

I'm astounded by my good fortune with deyo, who takes my breath away almost every time I look at him, and who is the root cause of the cheerful grin I seem to be wearing most of the time lately.

I'm not quite where I want to be, yet, but I'm getting there... and things are good in the meantime.

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[amanda-nye.livejournal.com]

Good news rocks, and seeing some is, indeed, a good change. Too often online, we see mostly the bad stuff, 'cause when things are good, folks generally don't feel the need to say anything about it. It's still nice to see.