A step back

[torquill]

I've had a little time to just veg tonight. I thought I would get something more done, but you know, this time has been so scarce lately, it has taken on a value much greater than usual. I caught up on livejournal instead of studying biochem -- and that's okay.

I've found a phrase in mind as I've been sitting here, and it crystallized as I finished catching up and went to get a drink.

This is my life.

It isn't anyone else's. I don't have to justify these choices to anyone else. My life is my own; it doesn't belong to school, or my friends, or even the mindless needs of the plants and the seasons. I don't have to be productive all the time, or at least, I don't have to use anyone else's definition of "productive".

If I get a B on the midterm next week, or a C, it won't matter next quarter. It'll be forgotten in two years, irrelevant in five.

What matters is that I spend this time wisely -- and only I can define what that wisdom is.



It feels like some things in my head are getting shaken loose, bit by bit. It'll be interesting to see where that goes over the next few months.

Comments

[akienm.livejournal.com]

(hug) indeed.