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torquillIt's the end of the year again, and what a wild and woolly year it's been.
Usually I spend the Season of Ashes in reflection and consideration of how I want my life to go in the next year, but it feels like that's all I've done for the last ten months. I'm ready for a retrospective, and then rest.
A major stage of my life has come to a close, as Akien steps back to let me find my own footing. Another major stage of my life may also be coming to an end; I haven't had a real period in about four months. If I follow in my mom's footsteps, I'll be officially menopausal by next summer. I've also severed a lot of ties to people I used to consider friends, mostly by letting them drift away, and left the pain of adolescence behind.
In some ways I'm in my own version of Hades now, quiet and mostly alone, letting the pain of life seep into the ground. It feels fitting to have it coincide with the death of the year, and its own journey through the underworld. Perhaps the new year will bring a quickening in my own life too, or at least sow the seeds of regrowth.
Usually I spend the Season of Ashes in reflection and consideration of how I want my life to go in the next year, but it feels like that's all I've done for the last ten months. I'm ready for a retrospective, and then rest.
A major stage of my life has come to a close, as Akien steps back to let me find my own footing. Another major stage of my life may also be coming to an end; I haven't had a real period in about four months. If I follow in my mom's footsteps, I'll be officially menopausal by next summer. I've also severed a lot of ties to people I used to consider friends, mostly by letting them drift away, and left the pain of adolescence behind.
In some ways I'm in my own version of Hades now, quiet and mostly alone, letting the pain of life seep into the ground. It feels fitting to have it coincide with the death of the year, and its own journey through the underworld. Perhaps the new year will bring a quickening in my own life too, or at least sow the seeds of regrowth.
