All work and no play drives Torquill INSANE

[torquill]

I'm not quite caught up on LJ, but I had to stop, because I'm getting too depressed and frustrated reading it.

Posts about people going to social events, having dinner with friends, seeing movies, reading books, working on hobbies... goddammit I want to have a life again.

Even just reading LJ has to be quick because I have a late homework assignment (due this morning), another hundred pages of history reading (behind on that too), and a journal article to hack out an analysis on... plus I have to research the project list of the plant path professors and email them requests for lab tours/introductions before my app hits the department's table. And that's just the stuff for school; I have a bunch of deferred tasks under the "Life" category that are waiting too. And that's before I can feel comfortable relaxing for a bit of recreation.

I used to have enough time to read a fiction book. Or see a movie. Or, y'know, do laundry. I used to be able to pretend I could have a social life.

I hate this fucking unpaid job indentured labor academic year.

This post is turning out rather more bitter than I intended, but honest to god, I'm hesitating at going to my (local) friend's friggin' birthday party because I have no time. If I've managed to clear away my homework (like that happens) I'm trying to grab at a few moments of precious freedom to try to preserve my remaining sanity.

It doesn't help that the history reading is a great example of why people tend to dislike the subject; most history profs can't write worth dick. Dry? Not really -- just disorganized, has trouble finding his point and making it, tends to put the cart before the horse (don't define a term thirty pages after you first used it, please), and enamored of polysyllabic and technical words. Good thing my TA was willing to explain what positivism is.

Not relaxing, not restful, and robbing me of the time I could use to read a real book.

I guess I'm done now. As you were.

Comments

[tiggerypum.livejournal.com]

I agree on the history stuff. When we were homeschooling Kat we got a history textbook as one of our many (free) resources. We'd been reading historical stories and such already - but the text book was the worst thing ever to read. I was used to reading materials aloud to her and working through them (3rd grade) and it was --horrible--. It's no small wonder that so many people grow up thinking history is bleah.

I hope you can find enough time for you in the middle of your indentured labor ;)

*HUGS*

[amanda-nye.livejournal.com]

breathing is good. the school year will pass. your friends know you have other priorities and agree that they are important. you're almost there! I'm excited for that, too.

I will have another birthday, and if you can't come, I know you wanted to, and that's enough.